Distracted

I seem to have been distracted for the last two weeks or so. Maybe it’s the holidays. I dunno. I have not forgotten about writing here and I doubt I ever will. However, I do believe that I will set myself a schedule to post at least once a week. I’m going to shoot for […]

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Wandering Mind

I have found that my mind has been wandering since I woke up this morning.  I cannot stop it from happening.  Even as I sit here in my backyard watching my boys play in a leave pile my mind is in overdrive about everything else going on in my life.  I know that things are […]

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Inside my head

Today was a very difficult day to live inside my head.  All the things that I have been learning to deal with in different healthy ways decided that today was the day that they were all going to roar back into my thoughts. They also choose to do it all at once which drives me […]

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Struggle

Today I forgot both my hat and sunglasses.  As I sit here on the train, riding backward, the morning sun is glaring into my eyes and it is driving me nuts.  I was rushing this morning to make sure my kids were given their allergy medicine so I don’t have to listen to a lecture from my ex-wife.  I have […]

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Stigma

There is a stigma attached to those with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  It is not an opinion, not an observation, I find it firmly based in fact. Mental health as a whole seems to have a firm stigma related to it. Prior to being diagnosed, I honestly do not think that I had an opinion […]

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Dreams and nightmares

Dreams and nightmares, you know, that succession of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur usually involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. That is what I’m going to talk about today, mainly because I forgot to take my meds last night and I was lucky enough to have a doozy of a nightmare. Several that I remember actually, but only […]

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I’ll have to change my plan

Certain times in the life of an individual there are things that become unimportant and relatively pointless.  Other things find themselves placed in a different perspective and when this happens a person can begin to focus on the things that are actually important to them.  I wish I had reached this point in my life […]

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Riding the Crazy Train

Sometimes it sucks having memory issues.  I went to bed last night having something on my mind to write about but I put it off until the train ride to work this morning because I was tired.  Good news, I guess, is that I was tried even to fall asleep even with crazy thoughts running […]

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My support system

So I’m sitting here in the waiting now area at the West Haven VA outpatient pharmacy waiting in my meds.  The waiting area is full and the rest are waiting in the adjacent hallway.  This follows my regular CPT appointment and after this, I still have to brave the ER downstairs to have my leg […]

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Here I go again

Here I go again.  No matter how much I try to calm my mind, my overly analytical mind, I’m failing miserably.  I’ve been stuck in thinking mode for the last few hours, well, all day really, but more intensely the last few hours.  I’ve learned that this is a side effect of PTSD and a […]

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